Packes Syrra

Last week I got a new car. This week I am getting myself some new habits...

 

I know I have said it before, and I probably will say it again, but today is a new beginning for me.

 

Lat night, before bed I took some "before pictures". No posing, no angles just standing there. I think they were horrible and in pure denial I thought "that can't be me". Reality caught up with me and I realised it actually is ME in the picture.

 

Here is what motivates me:

 

* Being healthy

* Losing weight

* Having more energy

* Gaining confidence

* = Being happier in general

What is most challenging this time is that I have to set a random goal. When I have done this before I have always had something to look forward to, like going somewhere (like London, the maldives or anywhere else). This time I don't, at least until June (Download2017) and that is 1 - not even booked yet, 2 - too far away.

 

I just need to get through this first couple of weeks, getting over this sugar addiction and then I'll be ready for anything.

If you have any good ideas for healty food (no seafood but fish and low/less carbs) please let me know!

 

XXX

Every single time… I work really hard just to fuck it up. Yes, I am talking about the same thing as usual – health (weight).

How fucking hard can it be?

I managed to lose 5,6 kg from January to May. I know it’s not super fast, but I did it. Since I got back from England I put on that same weight again. In two months.

I know most of it is water but still… I feel like I have this split personality where one of them is really healthy and motivated and the other is the opposite.

Since we moved to our house I haven’t been to the gym. I cancelled my gym membership and since I don’t have my own car yet I haven’t been able to go to the local gym. Hopefully I will buy a car during this week and when it is done I will go straight to the gym and sign up.

I feel ready for this now. I am done with my unhealthy habits and I really want to get back in shape. I am going to. I need to set a goal and then work for it.

I was thinking I’d do this for real this time, with all the measurements and shit, not only use the bathroom scales. The more I measure, the more motivation I get to get the results I want!

(Blog post from last week)