Packes Syrra

The countdown has begun. Oh the cliches... "New year, new possibilities". "A fresh start". "New Year's Resolutions". 

Still, why not? If someone can feel motivated to try and be a better person or improving their life somehow, I think they should. 

I started thinking about what my resolutions should be recently... I will probably go for #Beach2017 (as usual) but other than that I have decided to keep loving and enjoying life. I know everyone says "to hell with 2016". To be honest, I can't relate because my year wasn't that bad, quite the opposite really. (I know the world lost a lot of amazing people this year and there is war and shit, but besides that)

I'm thinking that, what if we end up same time next year wishing it was 2016 again...? 

I believe that "life is what you make it". I try to live "right here, right now" as much as possible. Too much if you ask some people... I think it's important doing the things that you want to do, when you want to do them. What if it is too late to do it another time? 

I live my life with very few regrets (link to that post below) and I want to keep living my life like that. I think I will be able to do that as long as I keep enjoying my life, doing the things I love.

* I want to keep travelling a lot.

* I'm going to continue spending time and money on my passion in life - Live Music. (I already have like 7 concerts/festivals I want to go to in 2017)

* I want to spend more time with friends and family. 

* I will do what I can to gain more confidence and feel good about myself. 

* I am going to enjoy good food, without feeling bad about it. 

* I'm going to make healthier choices too - eat right and work out.

* I want to figure out what/when/where/where I am going to get my new tattoo and hopefully have it done in 2017. (I have a few suggestions already)

Last but not least, I am going to do everything I can to make 2017 the best and the fucking craziest year in my life! Maybe you will be a part of it? 

Music can make me feel the way I once did. It can bring me back to the same state of mind in the first drum beat or chord. 

I use music to process my feelings - happiness, sadness, love and hate and sometimes it creates like little mental scars. Every time I hear that music those feelings come rushing right back. It's like I placed my feelings in that patricular music and listening to it later activates those feeling again. Like mentally travelling in time. It's an automatic reaction that I cannot control.

Sometimes it's a good thing, sometimes it's not. 

It's a good thing, when it takes me back to an awesome moment, for example when it takes me back to Download Festival, I can feel the mud under my wellies, a raindrop finds its way inside my rain poncho running down my back, I can taste the food I had and feel all the emotions I had while standing in the crowd. Or that feeling when you've just stepped inside the festival area... 

It's not, when it makes me feel that misery, that broken heart, loneliness or the emptiness... In one of my "recent" posts I wrote a little about "Hozier - Arsonist's lullaby". Sums it all up pretty well.

I can always relate to the music I'm listening to, in one way or another. Not just the lyrics, but to the music - like the drum beat or the riff for example. It is amazing how music can speak my feelings without using words and how someone can express my feelings better than myself, just using their instruments/voice.

One of my favourite lines is from KoRn - Twisted Transistor:

"A lonely life, where no one understands you. But don't give up, because the music do"

It's comforting because it makes me feel like I will never be alone, as long as I have music... 

Like stepping out of being yourself, becoming your-other-self... 

How else could one person go from having like nothing but self-control, to having no self-control at all?

For example, with my recent diet - how can that one side take such control over the addiction? An addiction that I have had for years, and suddleny it is so easy to stop. Pushing it to a point where it is unhealthy. Like she would give a fuck? 

Next thing you know, you just cannot stop... 

She is my dark side. But I fucking love her.