Packes Syrra

Sometimes things happen in your life. It all happens in a few seconds and everything changes forever. 

You end up miserable, knowing that you could've done a million things differently and things could still be like they used to. Being torn between blaming yourself for what happened and knowing it's not your fault. 

"If only I had...", "I should just have...", "What if I...".  None of it actually really matters, because it did happen and you did not do a single one of those millions things differently. 

What could've been if THAT didn't happen? How would things be now? I guess that's what hurts the most. Knowing things could still be good. That, and people not believing in your side of the story. The people you still want as your friends... 

The guilt and shame of ending up in that situation. How could this even happen? 

Still it's not those few seconds that repeat itself in the head like a broken record. It's everything around it, the broken relationships and trusts, the hurt and tears and the feeling that "Why did things have to end that way?". What could have been. 

How do you kill the demons inside your head?

Deciding not to let them get to you doesn't really help. Maybe acceptance comes later on...?

Until then, do you let the demons take over and break you down just to be able to build yourself up again or do you pretend they don't exist until they're gone forever?